Day 16: Writing as an Expression of Care, Gentleness, Support and Giving to Others as You Would Like to Receive

1.1-stop-carrying-the-pastHere I am sharing how writing has grown for me and within me into a certain specific expression, over time, over periods of doing it, then stopping for a long time, then picking it up again and through realizing a point of an empty space within and as me, that I have created through inconsistency within this point of self-supportive writing.

I’ll first describe a general timeline and outline of how self-supportive writing developed for me, how I utilized it, what I saw within it, what it opened up within me and my latest realizations within what writing means to me and what I do express through it at the moment.

First period of consistency

The first time I saw I applied myself within long term, consistent writing was around the time when I came to the Desteni farm. Many people here have already been writing consistently for a long time and I followed their writing feverishly as it was something extraordinary, something I have never seen before: raw, direct, always carrying something I could see within myself within greater clarity and detail after reading somebody else’s experiences within the same or similar point.

It was clear to me that to expand within my own process of self-realization and self-awareness I can’t only read somebody else’s words. I actually have to start “writing myself out” – create my own “material” – for myself and for others, to see and benefit from.

The beginnings are often difficult and so it is with self-supportive writing. Initially my writing was slow. I had to pull out every word and sentence, slowly, out of myself. Sometimes I would “go astray” or diverge from the focus of what it is I wanted to write about and I would see that and I would have to start again. As self-supportive writing is not just putting anything that comes out of my mind out there, on the paper or computer screen. It is a specific tool, a specific application, that in fact comes with great responsibility to myself and to others that read what I write. Thus this writing has to be approached with utmost attention, care, self-intimacy and seriousness.

Why such a specific approach?

Writing is a process of creation

What I create – stays with me. Thus I do not want to create things I can not live with as myself, things that would compromise me or somebody else. I want to create a clear path – a way – for myself and for others – of self-realization, self-forgiveness and practical, common sense applications, explained in the greatest simplicity I am capable of at the very moment of writing.

The effects of consistent, public self-writing

I observed the following within the period of time (around 12 months) where I applied consistent, public, self-writing:

  • My mind stabilized extensively – from the perspective of experiencing much less distraction, internal busyness, preoccupation with thoughts and internal reactions.
  • Deep feeling of satisfaction of getting out and opening up in detail many ideas, problems, solutions or processes that would otherwise play out only within my mind, incoherently and without an outlet or a way to fully and properly express, understand and release them.
  • I was able to establish and develop an intimate relationship – an agreement – with another person, that stands to this day, thanks to me being able to stabilize myself and understand myself as the point of emotions and feelings in relation to wanting a relationship and how to go about it with this person was extensive and difficult. Would I be able to effectively walk through this without the support of my self-writing? No.
  • I heard from other people that read my posts that they saw many points that they can relate to within what I wrote about myself and thus they were able to better understand themselves as well as use what I do as a point of inspiration.

And then I stopped writing…

…which allowed me to see the distinct difference of before/after and with/without in relation to consistent self-writing. On this I’ll write in my next post. Stay tuned.

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Day 15: Working with Your Body as a Feedback-Response Mechanism

Let’s open up the gift of utilizing your body to understand and drill into what it is that you’re experiencing, going through within your life: that which is bothering you as well as that which gives you excitement, and any other internal experiences for that matter.

You’ve got it – use it

Your physical human body is one of the things that you’ll keep with yourself for the whole duration of your lifetime. Besides allowing you to move around, learn new skills, utilize food to grow an sustain yourself – besides all of these things – it is the home of you and your mind or more specifically written: you as the mind.

This mind of yours is constantly giving you “stuff” to look at, it constantly “entertains” you and it is keeping you internally “busy” at all times, except perhaps when asleep (but that is a topic for another discussion). Besides the thoughts as words and pictures floating within your consciousness of which you’re aware of, the mind can and does manifest itself, it’s patterns, it’s consequences and the totality of who you are – it manifests this within your body. Of these manifestations, that is experienced here and there – sometimes more often sometimes less often – are various internal bodily sensations.

The bodily sensations

You have to be reasonably aware of yourself and your body to actually pick up a notice various internal reactions as bodily sensations that are happening within your body. For example:

  • Do you sometimes have “butterflies in your stomach”?
  • Do you sometimes notice a ball of energy, or a constriction, or just a tingling within your belly and/or your solar plexus?
  • A headache that suddenly came with no apparent physical reason.
  • Uneasy stomach, feeling like you do not want to eat much even though you’re hungry and ready for a proper meal.
  • Perspiration with the smell and aroma that you can suddenly pick up on yourself which smell is somewhat different to your normal sweat?

Can you pick up on any of these? Do you notice any of these?


…as the awareness of what you’re experiencing within and as your body is the stepping stone and a prerequisite to understanding yourself, your mind, who you in fact are in the totality of your being.

How I am working with my body lately

The following process manifested for me only quite recently. I got a better hang on it only after knowing about this “technique” as a point of knowledge and information for a few years now.

When and as I pick up a sudden discomfort, a pain, a “constriction”, an energy experience, a headache, “butterflies in my stomach” and/or any other sudden bodily sensations that is clearly distinguishable from the rest of the normal body functioning – I stop within myself.

I freeze myself in the “space and time” and give myself a moment to work with, open up, visualize and give words to this experience that is coming up within me. I do this because I have found that if I do not do this, if I do not push myself to understand and realize what I am experiencing within my physical body and where it came from and what does it mean to me and who I am and what I do – if I ignore this then the bodily sensations, usually one of the uncomfortable ones – persists and intensifies. And who wants to walk around and live in discomfort?

Within the point of giving or finding a meaning for yourself within what it is that you’re experiencing, through finding the words within yourself to describe this experience and/or visualize this experience it is absolutely necessary to first walk the process of self-writing and self-forgiveness. Within that you will learn the basics of self-honesty which is your guard, so to say, within the process of defining the energetic experiences within your human physical body as bodily sensations of movements of energy, pain, discomfort.

So if you’re new to this – this blog, the theme of this writing – first investigate self-writing and self-forgiveness. Once you comfortable with the application of these two, you can start playing with identifying the reactions within your body on the stop. Some of the points you’ll be able to clear up to a release – release here means a physical confirmation that you have actually found the relevant point for yourself within what you’re experiencing as yourself and that you have taken directive self-responsibility for this point.

Taking directive self-responsibility for a point can mean multiple things, depending on the nature of the point, it’s intensity and extensiveness:

  • Open up the point further within writing, doing a mind-construct on the point and applying self-forgiveness within writing.
  • Make a decision on what you need to do within your physical reality in terms of what it is that you practically need to change or where to apply yourself so that you address the point that you’ve just revealed and realized within yourself.
  • Make a change within yourself in terms of how you approach certain situations or reactions within your world and reality.
  • And more – there is much more that you will discover for yourself as yourself as each one’s process is individual and each specific solution one will find and live for oneself is unique from that perspective, while at the same time within each solution there will be a pattern that can be shared with others, that will help them to realize and create their own unique personal solutions to themselves and their reality. Just like this post, which is a generalization and extraction of events and realizations that I had and walked within my own life and described and shared them here within a more condensed and generalized way, so as to assist others.


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Day 14: Seeing and Reacting to Other’s Pain, Discomfort or Suffering

As I expanded my world and my participation within it, I came in contact with various people and within working together and sharing our time together, I have created relationships and connections to these people.

Within this post–or the series of posts that will follow–I’ll be looking at one specific aspect of a relationship with another person: the point and/or perception of care towards another person and the resulting reactions and mind interactions stemming from seeing or noticing this other person suffer or go through some hardship or struggle with something or someone. By “relationship” I am referring to the general point of getting to know someone on a deeper level and spending time with this person, “getting used to this person”, establishing deep, intimate and meaningful communication together and all around getting to know this person “very well” and as such creating a definite bond to and with another human being.

Let’s first identify some aspects of a relationship play-out where one notices the other having difficulty with something or someone:

  • Getting emotionally involved within someone else’s difficulty through reacting to the information that is presented or presents itself.
  • Wanting or trying to defend another from whatever is the perceived cause or origin of other’s suffering/discomfort/problem.
  • Judging and blaming oneself for not being able to effectively/immediately help another through removing another’s pain/problem/discomfort.
  • Judging and blaming something or someone else that is apparently the cause or origin of another’s pain/grievances/problem/discomfort.
  • Planing/scheming/projecting within an energetic reaction of blame and judgement on how to take on the problem that affects another that one “cares” about / has an emotional/feeling bond with and/or is in a relationship with.
  • Getting angry, agitated, revved up and/or energetically charged through observing another / listening to another sharing some problem or one’s difficulty with something or someone.

These points immediately open up the door for the application of self-forgiveness as they are the entrances and doorways to comprise of oneself and another, as all the above points are based on energetic reaction and the subsequent misunderstanding and misinterpreting of the problem.

The desire want and need to assist another is genuine and can be utilized. But it has to be approached within absolute stability and understanding of the problem at hand. This stability requires one’s self-honesty within assessing one’s own reactions to the “first encounter” with the problem – seeing or listening to another within difficulty. So if one identifies these energetic reactions emerging within oneself one has to apply self-supportive tools as follows:

  1. Immediately stabilise oneself through breathing, to open a window within oneself to stop the immediate thought tornado within oneself.
  2. Move one’s focus within one’s body and observe and take note of the experience within, whether there are any energies present or emerging within one’s body and/or it’s specific parts, manifested as movement, tingling, pain and discomfort or other bodily sensations that are normally not present within one’s body.
  3. Identify the source, the point behind, the reactions and experiences within one’s body.
  4. Apply self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements in relation to the point found lurking behind and causing the experience within one’s body.
  5. Live the realization(s) gained within the above process through applying oneself every day and re-applying this process every time one notices a reactions within one’s physical body emerging, forming and manifesting.

Within the next post, we’ll look at the above point number 3.: How to work with the experiences within one’s body, how to identify them, assign/discover words and meaning they convey and how one can use one’s own body as a feedback-response mechanism.

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Day 13: Distrusting People Around You

Within this post I’ll explore another mind-pattern that comes up often within interaction, living and co-existing with people: Distrust towards others.

How is Distrust towards Others created?

For example–you had an experience where someone did not do something exactly as he promised to do it. Within that you judged this person as someone who’s word is questionable. This can be a very small thing, like for example omitting something within ones house duties that are arranged with others that live with you.

This judgement was not released through self-forgiveness. Steps have not been applied within physical reality to resolve this point within what’s possible to establish with another and within the context and severity of the problem that came out. Instead what you left carrying after this event is a negatively charged past moment memory where another is to blame.

When something similar happens with the same person, or even a completely different person, you’ll immediately access/recall this past moment judgement and add onto it.

Within this you’re creating a network of thoughts and beliefs within your mind that contains and imprisons people around you into predetermined picture/image representations within and as your mind. Within this you’re creating an alternate reality and you will use this alternate reality to make assessments and decisions within the real physical reality. And since your starting point is coming from a make-belief world your results will be unexpected and consequential for you and others.

How does the make belief reality within your mind influence your interaction with the real world?

Your thoughts, beliefs and backchat about others create a lens through which you look at the outside (as well as inner) world. This lens though distorts what you see, so the starting point of your decisions and assessments about your world and others within it will be distorted as well. Thus it is important to stop the creation of these lenses–the make belief worlds where you create virtual reality representations of others within your world.

Self-forgiveness on Creating Alternate Mind Realities within and as Yourself where You Doubt and Distrust Others Based on Past Moment Memories

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to use past moment memories of someone not doing exactly what he said he will do, to create a mind web of thoughts, beliefs and backchat about and directed towards another or others, in which these beings are entangled and frozen in space and time and negative or positive energetic charge is assigned to each and every one of them, as well as attributes, like in a virtual reality game, so as to define them and imprison them so that one does not have to work with these being real-time, here in the physical reality, but rather defer to and yield to the comfort of one’s thoughts where one does not have to practically act and direct oneself and others within the physical reality one participates in and is responsible for.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to distrust others and immediately invalidate what they’re saying, doing or suggesting towards me or towards others through accessing and relying on the perception of them through a lens created through categorizing and building thoughts, beliefs and backchat about and directed towards these beings within and as my mind during the course of interaction and physical participation with these beings as I experienced internal or external conflict in relation to these beings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to feel uncomfortable around others and blame others for this self-created internal experience as I am not really participating with other physical beings made of flesh and bone here with me but rather I am locked and imprisoned within my mind with the representations and mind virtual reality characters based on these real human beings I have created in order to avoid to really get to know these people or any other people as that requires time, patience, effort, social skills, skills of problem and conflict resolution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to fear others because I denied myself the opportunity to really get to know them and understand them on an intimate physical level within conversations and interactions with these beings and instead of looking at practical ways how I can move within this point I fled to my mind out of fear of this being too difficult, too overwhelming for me and as such compromise myself and others through living in denial of myself and others and who we really are and the potential we have that needs to be nurtured and cared for and expanded and lived into being so that we do not have to fear each other and self as we live in understanding of each other and self.

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Day 12: Final Flag-Point: Consequence

the-footbridge-1436278-mIn our journey through the pattern of blaming someone for ones own internal experiences we have thus far looked at:

  1. Overview of a mind pattern
  2. Example of a mind pattern play-out
  3. Flag point no. 1.: Creation
  4. Flag point no. 2.: Buildup of Energy and Reactions

Now it’s time to look at the last self-supportive flag-point: consequence. Yes indeed, we’re going to approach consequence as something we can utilize–and make the best out of it–so to say–instead of wallowing in a sorrow, guilt and regret of what has already been done.

Let’s start with an example: You’ve walked the process of creating a mind pattern through first labeling your colleague as inferior to yourself within his application of his skills in relation to work you do together. You’ve participated within this mind pattern for a while, blaming your colleague for the “hardship” you experience over time, having to put extra effort into correcting your colleague, making sure the projects you work together on are up to your standards. The severity and intensity of the thoughts, energies, emotions and feelings you now hold inside you expanded and keeps expanding. This resulted in multiple arguments with your colleague where you raised your voice, expressed your blame and went all the way to be nasty, within your words, towards this another human being. The last argument was so intense, that after it you no longer speak to your colleague. You try to distance from him as much as possible as well as from the work you used to do together with him, no matter the consequences for others in and around your workplace who depend on the work you and your colleague used to do.

The consequence flag point within this story are the following physical reality play-outs you’ve participated within:

  • loosing your temper within arguments with your colleague, being nasty within your words towards him
  • trying to distance yourself from this colleague so as to cut all ties with him
  • letting go your responsibility for the work/projects you used to do together

Can you see how these detrimental physical play-outs have been created and manifested through your mind, through allowing your reactions to fester and get stronger? Since the outcomes of your irresponsibility and inability to deal with your own reactions inside you as emotions and feelings have now become physical, we’re talking about consequence. It is something that can not be taken back. The deeds have been done, the words have been spoken and these will generate further consequence. Thus, it is in ones best interest to catch a developing mind-pattern/reaction/emotion/feeling before it reaches the stage of consequence within your and others world. We’ve looked at this ability in the previous post.

However, sometimes, especially at the beginning of your “process”, you’ll only realize yourself within and during when the consequence takes place. So it is necessary to learn to learn from this consequence, see it for what it is, understand how it was created and align oneself to never again allow and accept to create such a consequence–or any other consequence–again.

The “gift” within consequence–if and when you stop yourself and decide to take a good hard look at yourself and your participation–is that you’ll see all the reactions/emotions and feelings you’ve participated in clearly – as they are the ones raging within you at the very moment and were present all the time as you’ve created your consequence. Then you simply walk the the process of identifying the flag-points within a mind-pattern backwards:

  1. Identify what emotions and feelings you currently participate within, the ones that are the most prominent ones.
  2. Look at and backtrack how and through what participation, physical or mental, you’ve intensified and built these emotions and feelings.
  3. Finally identify the first moment of creation of this particular emotion or feeling. Where and when it is and how it was that you identified yourself with and convinced yourself that you have the right to feel this or that way, instead of facing your problem practically and directly and afterwards letting it go completely.

Once you identify the above points, you apply self-forgiveness on these points. Check out the list of the previous posts in this series for examples of the application of self-forgiveness (the list is at the beginning of this post).


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Day 11: Flag point no. 2.: Buildup of Energy and Emotion

We looked at the creation, the beginning stages, of forming a detrimental mind participation pattern. Now we can progress to our flag point number two. This is where we deal with thoughts that are being constantly charged and as such are becoming more prominent, concrete. Let’s dive into self-support through self-forgiveness right away:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to participate in a buildup of energy as emotions and feelings within blaming someone else for my own negative internal experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to willingly participate in a self-compromising pattern of building and festering something that I know will have a detrimental effect on myself, my world and others within it, yet I was still unwilling to stop myself due to my self-righteous belief that I can not possibly resolve my own negative internal experience I have in relation to another unless the other is first dealt with/punished/removed from my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to blame others that do not want to accommodate me within my desire to remove someone from my reality and within that judge them as being and causing the same problem as the original person I have a problem with and within that further compromise my relationships with and my responsibility towards others and within this become evil much greater than the person that I wanted to remove from my reality originally due to me blaming and judging this person for creating consequence and being a detrimental factor within the reality I live/participate in.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to deny myself the gift of and the simplicity of simply not participating within thoughts that come up within my mind during and after situations/moments within my reality where friction arises during physical participation within the same space with others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to forget that I am here breathing and able to physically move myself and I do not have to remain stuck in blame and past moment memory of experiencing a negative energetic reaction within myself with and during participation with another where I perceived this person attacked, lied, deceived or was manipulative towards me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to not realize that by holding onto the past moment memories of what others did or did not do to me within a negative/detrimental/consequential context I am wasting and compromising the present moment, the responsibility I have for myself and how I conduct myself within this world as well as compromising any chance for physical resolution of the problem with another that is bothering me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to compromise the walk/journey towards a solution with another through me being reactive and unwilling to let go of and forgive within and for myself the past and the past moment memories I hold against another.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to instead of focusing my mind onto finding practical physical solutions for problems that I am experiencing with another, waste my energy within being angry, judgmental and nasty within my mind towards another.

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Day 10: Self-Support with Flag-points within Blaming Someone

Having identified three major flag-points within the process of blaming someone (for ones own internal experiences) we’re now going to look at how to support oneself with some common sense tools to face this point effectively, recognize the mind pattern as it comes/emerges again and learn from it so that we do not repeat the same mistakes over and over again.

Self-supportive flag-points within the point of Blame towards Another

Self-supportive flag-points within the point of Blame towards Another

I’ve prepared a simple illustration (above) of the points we’re looking at. Notice how the intensity of the self-experience (of blame) gradually grows and intensifies as one is participating within the mind-pattern/thoughts/emotions/feelings/beliefs/projections towards another. This is generally how most patterns play out – as you participate within such a mind pattern it grows and intensifies in strength over time. This is a crucial point to understand and identify within yourself. If some reaction as emotion or feeling is taking over you and growing stronger over time, you HAVE to stop and assess your situation and remediate. Otherwise you’re going to cause consequence for yourself and others as you’ll eventually act out, snap out and/or get possessed completely and loose most and/or all of your self-control when you expect it the least.

First Flag-Point – Creation

This is the start. This is the first occurrence of a reaction as a thought/image within your mind that is energetically charged as a particular emotion or a feeling. It can be very subtle. Yet it is of the utmost importance that you learn to recognize and identify these subtle reactions within yourself and work with them through self-supportive writing and self-forgiveness. If left unchecked, these reactions will grow.

For example: You come into a situation with your work colleague where you have to correct this person and/or help this person to correct something, say a project you’re both responsible for. The moment of creation of the problem within this point would be where you judge your colleague as less than, as inferior to you within his skills and his application due to you having to correct him.

Let’s immediately correct this judgement utilizing self-forgiveness:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to judge another for what I perceive as lacking skill or skills that I believe are inferior to mine.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to judge another as being lazy, untrustworthy and generally a bad person due to this person missing something and/or making a mistake within a project/effort we participate/participated together within and as.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to through my judgements towards another make myself superior to this person so as I do not have to look at and correct my own shortcomings within the actual skills or the lack thereof I see within another and/or within the way I deal with, interact and handle this person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to compromise the actual project as a point of effort that someone else is waiting for/is depending upon through me not being an effective part of a team, a part that can work with other parts even if these other parts (people) make mistakes or omit stuff.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to access the point of self-righteousness and make the situation of having to assist and correct someone within a point of co-working all about myself and my own internal experiences of hardship, unfairness and having to do “something extra”.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to perceive me doing something extra, something that I did not initially expect will have to be done and react to this fact and instead of working and conducting myself effectively within the now changed situation, I went into a point of reaction and emotional possession where I blame another for that the point did not go “my way”, did not go as expected.

In the following post we’ll look at the other two flag points we’ve identified within the series of these mini-articles. Thanks for your attention.

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Day 9: (Continued) Blaming Someone for Ones Own Negative Internal Experiences – A Practical Example

fightIn the previous post I diverged a bit from the point that I intended to share. It was still a general introduction to what a mind pattern is and how it works, instead of a concrete example as the title suggested. In this post I’ll thus get more specific and describe a common situation that can arise within ones mind and physical participation – blaming others for what one is experiencing within and as oneself.

My own experience is that dealing with other people is one of the most challenging parts of existing within this world as a human being living in a fairly stable situation where the basic necessities of life and living here are met. Within this living, living alongside and with, interacting, sharing problems and solutions with other people – conflict, misunderstanding and tension can easily arise and be fueled and made worse by the parties involved.

Being able to deal with these friction situations arising between oneself and the other human beings is thus a very important skill, a very important part of oneself that one has to develop in order to function effectively and to ones full potential within this reality.

Example of a common pattern of a development of blame towards another

Imagine you’re working with someone on a project. Your colleague submits his work to you. You find that he made many mistakes within the submitted work. Within this moment, at this stage of this play-out, you might find a backchat developing within your mind. Thoughts like “Oh no, not again. This person is being lazy, unreliable and unprofessional again. What this person does is compromising this project and since I am involved it is also compromising myself as the results of this project will reflect on me as well. I now have to put extra effort into assisting this person to fix his mistakes. Maybe I’ll even have to do some of the work myself for this person. I do not like this!”.

Put a flag-point here for yourself. As we have identified the first moment of reaction. The first moment where we accessed reactions within ourselves and where we have charged emotions and feelings within ourselves and allowed them to influence and shape our thought pattern, our stance and standing within this situation. We’ll get back to this flag-point later and reveal a solution, show ourselves the practical, non-consequential approach to be taken in the moment like this – but, now – we’re going to continue with our example.

You approach your colleague with the problem of his work not being up to standard, containing mistakes and explain what has to be fixed and how. Your colleague nonchalantly agrees and promises to fix his mistakes and get back to you soon with the result of his work.

Some time passes by and you’re handed your co-workers work again. After reviewing it you see it still contains some of the very same mistakes and problems you have identified and explained how to deal and fix them to your colleague before. Now the mind rages: “Damn it! I knew I can not trust this person. This is unacceptable. This person is making my life miserable. Now I have to go back again to this person and repeat myself. This is not fair. I’ve got more important things to do than baby-sitting this person. This person should be fired! This person is useless!”.

Here we place our second flag-point. Within our latest backchat we can see that we have stepped up from the last time, we have intensified the reactions as emotions and feelings. Anger is present. “Solutions” are presented by the mind where the other person would be “dealt with” or even “punished” for his misbehaving.

Continuing with the story two co-workers that does not seem to get along with each other:

Fast forward and the project has been finished and submitted to your superiors. After many times getting back to your colleague you finally managed to get the project into a shape you’re fairly satisfied with and thus this chapter/incident is seemingly over. What however remains within you is intense negative charge, backchat, a belief and an impression of your co-worker – as an unreliable, untrustworthy and compromising factor within your world/existence.

Here we place our third flag-point. This intense negative charge towards another that you accepted and allowed to be born and to get stronger and stronger within yourself will now carry within you and influence and direct your whole beingness and participation, especially towards further future dealings with your colleague, but not excluding other people and situations within your work and personal life that will resemble the points that you’ve reacted to and created a negative emotional charge towards/to within the example described.

In the next post we’re look again at our three flag-points, put them into a self-supportive context and advise on what can be done at each of the important junctions within ones participation in order to be effective within dealing with situations of friction and conflict with others.

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Day 8: Blaming Someone for Ones Own Negative Internal Experiences

Fractal FlowerWelcome to the domain of the mind, where the mind will throw at you and lock you into one it’s favorite creations – mind patterns. And within this the mind will let YOU do all the work. Within this fascinating process – with horrendous results – of creating and participating within a mind-pattern, you’ll put together past moment experiences as memories into brand new combinations. The result of this haphazard self-manipulation is the creation of a belief. A specific belief about yourself. A belief that you’ll save within your body and mind and later, when the outside or internal conditions are right, access it, to deceive and compromise yourself within your participation within this reality. Though, within your self-righteousness, you won’t think and consider and deem this participation as self-compromising, detrimental to yourself and others or just as plain abuse. You’ll believe your actions are perfectly justifiable.

There – in the few short sentences, you travelled through a simplified timeline of events that the creation, storage and participation within a mind-pattern will take you through.

We now know that these mind-patterns are not particularly fun to be a subject to. We want to direct these manifestations, understand them, forgive them and direct ourselves effectively to not fall for the same bait again. The bait of such a mind pattern is an easy, familiar solution to a situation that presents itself and that we react to and/or are not sure how to direct. Within such moment the mind will present it’s bait: “Look at this shiny, comfortable though-path you can take. You’ve been there before. You’re the righteous one on this path. Just go for it!” It sounds almost like an advertisement on the TV. And what do we know about advertisements in TV? They always lie, they present the product and it’s effects in a sugar coated illusionary reality that the consumer simply can not attain. Yet the promulgation and the incredible sums of money spend for advertising prove how effective it is.

Just like TV advertising, our mind patterns that the mind ever so frequently presents – are extremely effective in misleading one from the simplicity of assessing one’s reality within the stability of ones breath, within the absence of energetic reactions as emotions and feelings. And here is another parallel with the advertising industry. Many designers and producers within this field would tell you that for an advertisement to be effective, it has to generate a strong emotion or trigger a particular feeling within the viewer. The same applies to mind-patterns. Energetic experiences are always present when one participates within a mind-pattern.

The presence of reactions as emotions and feelings you can use to your own benefit! What do you know when you experience these reactions? Yes – I am participating in a mind pattern. I need to stop, stabilize myself and identify this pattern.

First you’d start with writing down your experience. We’ll explore this application within the following post. See you then.

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Day 7: Swallowing the Bitter Pill of Realization that One has Abused Something or Someone

bulletIf proper care is not taken before and whilst making a decision within one’s world and reality, like I’ve described in my previous post, one is inevitably going to abuse/compromise part of oneself or another person. Why is that?

Decisions are like bullets. If one’s aim is off, if one’s concentration is lacking or is influenced (by a substance) – one is going to miss the target. A bullet, just like a decision, carries within itself a great amount of force/energy. If this energy is misdirected, if it misses the target it can inevitably hurt someone or something, which was not the shooters direct intention. However through not being stable within one’s decision – the starting point of shooting the bullet – the shooter did in fact decide to be careless about his shooting and thus he already made a decision to miss. Even though this self-compromising and others-compromising decision was/is not so apparent to the one making a decision – the shooter as used in this metaphor – it still is a fact of physical reality and it can not be taken back.

Once the reactions dissipate, once one realizes the damage that one has inflicted due to one’s carelessness and refusal of first stopping oneself and allocating oneself as a point of absolutely stability and trustworthiness that can stand as the decision about to be made till the end of time – then and only then the bitter realization comes of what it is one has in fact participated within.

One can obviously deny the responsibility for the consequences of one’s actions/decisions. However this writing will only continue to make sense for those that are actually able to stop at least at the point where they’ve caused a problem/damage and are willing to assess their participation self-honestly within the absolute decision to change so as to never again repeat the same mistake, as one realizes the responsibility one has for oneself and everyone else whilst being an active participant within this reality. So those that deny, disappear now, like a smoke from a fired gun – as what follows you won’t be able to comprehend.

Once the smoke has cleared once again – the metaphor that is used for one’s energetic reactions as feelings and emotions not being so prominent – for a moment – once this takes place one has to use this opportunity to self-introspect and identify the mind pattern that one has fallen into, that one has charged and identified oneself with and as. This pattern is the “toxic substance” that influences and debilitates one’s concentration and will inevitably lead to a decision based on a lie. A lie that one has created and substantiated for oneself. A lie that is constructed from one’s thoughts, beliefs and backchat about one’s reality. A lie that is fueled by one’s self-interest that ignores the facts, the situation on the ground, in order to get what one wants by all means necessary.

Such a pattern will have many faces/manifestations.

In the next post, we’ll look at an example of such a patten: “Blaming someone for one’s own negative internal experiences”. Stay tuned.

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