Monthly Archives: February 2011

Reconsidering and doubting decisions

Posted on February 28, 2011 by

I’ve found a peculiar point within myself that is a forerunner of many of my falls and time loops. It’s the point of reconsidering and doubting the decisions I’ve made in the past and decided to stand by and as, … Continue reading →

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Today’s backchat

Posted on February 21, 2011 by

What is a mind backchat? It’s when one argues/justifies/reasons with oneself within and as one’s own mind. It always creates a point of conflict and friction within oneself and instead of directing oneself appropriately one tends to arrive at delusional … Continue reading →

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Perspectives on process of self-realization as graphs

Posted on February 20, 2011 by

Today I am doing something fresh and making this post in a form of a picture I’ve drawn.

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Touch

Posted on February 17, 2011 by

I am experimenting with the point of physical touch within relationship. The starting point, as I can see now, is the desire to experience all the nice feelings, the warmth, the slight anxiety combined with exhilaration and excitement. An outflow … Continue reading →

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47 days at the Desteni farm

Posted on February 16, 2011 by

In this post I’ll look at my experience at the Desteni farm, the “headquarters” of the equality movement. I’ve arrived here on 1st of January. Quite a nice date to start something new, hey? And indeed it’s very much a … Continue reading →

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The easy bait of positive polarity

Posted on February 14, 2011 by

I find it very easy and tempting to after you emerge from some shit like sorting out some negatively charged feelings/emotions/possession to fall into the trap of participating within positive polarity feelings/emotions/energetics. Something apparently nice and beautiful happens that cheers … Continue reading →

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Light-bending antics render object invisible

Posted on February 12, 2011 by

From an article in Mail & Guardian February 11 to 17 2011: “The cloak exploits the natural light-bending properties of calcite, a transparent glass-like crystal, so that an object placed under it is hidden by what appears to be a … Continue reading →

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Perception and idea of another within and as a relationship

Posted on February 11, 2011 by

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to perceive a being as trust worthy and someone I can share all my thoughts with as I see that this being does not react to what I say and is willing to … Continue reading →

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Self-forgiveness on reactions to unexpected and unpredicted changes in daily routine

Posted on February 10, 2011 by

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to react within and as anger and resistance when being commanded to do work that is outside of my daily routine. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to react with fear and … Continue reading →

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What it is that I fear loosing by completely letting go of the desire for a sex relationship?

Posted on February 9, 2011 by

I give immense value to having fulfilling and satisfactory sex in my life. What’s irrational about this is that I have never developed such sex with anyone or never had such sex that I would consider fulfilling and satisfactory. So … Continue reading →

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