Tag Archives: desire

My Experience with Demon Possession part 1.

Posted on February 6, 2011 by

Childhood and teenage years – yearning for love It all started with how I build a large part of my personality. As soon as I saw within others the profound interest in relationships, the interest and engagement in the other … Continue reading →

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Wanting to be loved

Posted on February 3, 2011 by

I am looking at this point within myself of wanting and requiring to be loved by someone as a point that would give me a sense of security, happiness, the sense that someone cares for me, is there for me, … Continue reading →

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Programming and agreements

Posted on January 27, 2011 by

Let’s look at the agreement between two beings from the perspective of a programmer/program. So what are the parts, the individuals, in terms of program that go into an agreement? It would be the programmer, the creator and the language … Continue reading →

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How do I separate myself from actual real physical beings

Posted on January 27, 2011 by

I found another point relevant and connected to the yearning I experience towards specific being(s) in my reality, the desire for sex and relationship. It’s the point of separating myself from what is real here, from what the actual beings … Continue reading →

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Setting myself free from the point of grasping for a point of happiness somewhere in the future as my birth right

Posted on January 26, 2011 by

I found a point within myself. A projection, a hope, an agreement with myself that somewhere, somehow in the future I’ll do something, I’ll get something or somewhere and that will finally bring ultimate happiness into my life and within … Continue reading →

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Consumed by relationship want and need

Posted on January 11, 2011 by

Not something that I particularly want to write about – I resist – so I deliberately push myself to do it. Past days I am facing extensively the point of wanting a relationship – and I don’t dare to call … Continue reading →

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In the early morning – reporting live

Posted on December 9, 2010 by

Yay – it’s 6:22am here and I am up from 5. So getting back on track with 5 hour sleep. Waking up was not such a big problem – it becomes much more problematic on the third day I’ve come … Continue reading →

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A walk – walking into the dark and unknown, alone

Posted on November 30, 2010 by

A few hours ago I went for a walk – nice sunny winter day – ideal for a long walk. I was pondering on my rage and frustration, as expressed in the previous post. I didn’t come to anything new, … Continue reading →

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Besit

Posted on November 23, 2010 by

Be*sit” - To suit; to fit; to become. Immediately the point of going to farm came up and me fearing what I will become through this, how I’ll change. What do I fear? I fear that I won’t enjoy myself, that … Continue reading →

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My dreamed up life – the life I dreamed about – or still do

Posted on September 29, 2010 by

While reading Marlen’s post about her meeting with a “well situated” couple the point of my dreamed life and how I wanted my life to look like and be came/comes up. When I learned a bit about money and how … Continue reading →

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