Tag Archives: sex

My Experience with Demon Possession part 1.

Posted on February 6, 2011 by

Childhood and teenage years – yearning for love It all started with how I build a large part of my personality. As soon as I saw within others the profound interest in relationships, the interest and engagement in the other … Continue reading →

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Sex stimuli – desire for sex based on pictures

Posted on January 28, 2011 by

Watching a movie. A beautiful/attractive woman, big lips, big breasts seduces a man. As that happens I feel the energy within my rising up, building up, me reacting with want – I want that, I want more of that feeling … Continue reading →

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How do I separate myself from actual real physical beings

Posted on January 27, 2011 by

I found another point relevant and connected to the yearning I experience towards specific being(s) in my reality, the desire for sex and relationship. It’s the point of separating myself from what is real here, from what the actual beings … Continue reading →

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Setting myself free from the point of grasping for a point of happiness somewhere in the future as my birth right

Posted on January 26, 2011 by

I found a point within myself. A projection, a hope, an agreement with myself that somewhere, somehow in the future I’ll do something, I’ll get something or somewhere and that will finally bring ultimate happiness into my life and within … Continue reading →

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Consumed by relationship want and need

Posted on January 11, 2011 by

Not something that I particularly want to write about – I resist – so I deliberately push myself to do it. Past days I am facing extensively the point of wanting a relationship – and I don’t dare to call … Continue reading →

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Depression

Posted on November 7, 2010 by

The last say 3 days I am slowly going into a kind of depression and laziness and wanting to give up. I experience myself as sluggish, not capable of facing myself and my responsibilities, slow in doing things. Frustrated, sometimes … Continue reading →

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29th November – I am still a wanker – wank wank

Posted on October 29, 2010 by

What a boring title. (Meanwhile I’ve added more to the title than just the day, so it’s very expressive now:) Today – overview: Overslept almost an hour. I’ve woke up before that, 10 minutes before 6am, went to toilet but … Continue reading →

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The Sex Point

Posted on September 17, 2010 by

I’ll have to write and write and write about this. Because it’s still a “problem” within me. My relationship with sex, sexual desire, imagination, fantasy, desire in general, addiction to energy. I see it very clearly – by “it” I … Continue reading →

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Vlog: Desteni Girls

Posted on September 17, 2010 by
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Underlying anxiety

Posted on September 4, 2010 by

My experience at the moment is that of underlying anxiety. I can’t however say what or why I am anxious about. It’s almost like uncovering another layer of myself – and here it is – the layer of anxiety I … Continue reading →

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